i will be....

sorry, sorry....
I'm not ok again... I know i so annoying... Why i cant stand up?please, alice.... Stand up?
Who am i now? I dunno.... I dunno my self anymore..... Attend kinns party at poppy, i walked away.... I not mean to drunk.... Liquor is sucks.... Everytime i drunked i cried.... Please stop crying.... I need her..... And today is my off day, i attended susan's party.... I know i'm not ok.... I choose dun go home tonight.... Lonely time is really killing me.... Killing me.... Sometimes i think i wana take a knife just end my life like that, but i think of my career... I like my job.... But if i have her.... My life will be perfect..... Really perfect.... Baby, i need you~ please come back to me..... Sorry, i cried again.... Sorry.... Sorry....